I spent my Easter weekend taking care of a 7 month old, bald and pale, blue eyed baby girl who I thought needed me so much, but as it turned out, it was I who needed her. She came to me from a home where her needs are not met, where she survives, but does not thrive. When I brought her to our home, she seemed so exhausted, yet too tense to fall asleep; I have never seen a baby so still or so quiet. Her eyes followed me everywhere, and when I bent down to smile and give her a kiss, she surprised me by reaching up and putting her hands on my cheeks and giving me the biggest smile! I almost lost it right then, but I felt so strongly God telling me it was no coincidence she was here this weekend. My sisters and I loved on her as much as we possibly could, and as the night went on she started smiling and talking (or cooing) more and more. With no word from her parents, I decided she would be staying the night with us, and I wrapped her up as tight as I could and started to rock her to sleep. She smiled at me until she fell asleep, but I couldn’t put her down, I wanted her to feel safe and warm. As I rocked her, God was laying on my heart a pretty serious question- how far would I go? If she was taken from her parents would I take her, even though it would mean a lot of changes in our life? All the difficulties she is going to face with learning, and developing, would I face those with her? She slept for almost 9 hours, without waking up. I fed her right away, and I could already see a big difference in her. We put together the best Easter outfit we could (not much to work with) and then Andrew played with the baby while I got ready. I fell even more in love with him watching him be so sweet to her! After church we went to Andrew’s parents for lunch, where she got even more love and attention. Andrew’s grandma actually had her laughing so hard she couldn’t breathe! Andrew and I couldn’t believe how noisy she was, laughing, gibbering, squealing; she just seemed so happy! I still hadn’t heard from the parents and was planning on another night with her when I got a call that they wanted me to take her back. I started to cry as I picked up her things. As Andrew and his parents prayed over her I kept telling God over and over that I would take her and give up our easy life so that this baby could know love; so that I could teach her about Jesus who loved her so much he gave his life for her! Taking her home was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. All I can do is pray for her, and believe that Jesus knows every day of her life, past present and future, and that he loves her more than I could even begin to. Thank you sweet baby girl for giving me such a strong picture of what Christ did for me. Thank you Lord for what you taught me about Your love this weekend. I know that you are asking me to care for children like this in my future, and I will willingly do so.